I went back to work today, the first time since 10/13. Even though everyone is envious of me for having such a nice, long break from work, I still felt like it was too soon. Not too soon as in "I haven't healed enough to go back" but too soon like "
ahhh, I hate going there!"
If you don't know this about me, I am a planner. My dad's a planner, my brother's are planners and I am a planner (although therapy has helped some in the fact that when my plans don't go the way I envisioned, I'm pretty OK with that:). Here's an example about how
uber-obsessed Chow's are with planning. We went to
Gallapolis (I still don't know if I am spelling that right) and three weeks before, my dad says to my mom, "So, when we go to
Gallapolis, you can pick me up at work and we'll drive my car down and leave yours in the lot." To which my mom probably screamed and said, "That's three weeks away!"
So, I forgot to plan past my surgery. I have been so sick for so long (I know I say that, but it was only four months, and I know people have a it A LOT worse than me). Anyway, I only planned in my mind to the surgery. I counted down. I had to wait 21 days! But now that it is over, I kind of don't know how to get jump-started back into life again.
Hmmm. Just jump in feet first I guess and get used to the fact that I'm well again. (Once the pain from the surgery goes away of course!) I even have to force myself to eat when I am alone. With friends, it's no problem, but when I am alone I have to say to myself, "You're not sick anymore, you should eat something."
Weird, huh?
I think since I had four months of sickness, I'll give myself four months to get used to feeling well:) No sense in rushing things, right?