Amanda Takes the Power (and Man it Feels Good!)

Have you heard the song "Defying Gravity?" It is from the musical Wicked. I have always loved the song because evokes such strong emotion with the combination of music and lyrics, and, as a certified music geek, I love that kind of stuff.

But lately, I have been thinking about the lyrics, and about how they relate to my life right now. I am changing and growing, and learning about myself. I'm figuring out how to love myself and respect myself so that others can do the same. I'm learning to not be afraid of conflict and how to be comfortable with sharing my feelings. (And all due to great (expensive) therapy!)

Here are some of the words that seem to speak to me and how things are going in my life:

"Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

I'm through accepting limits
'cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down."

It speaks to me. The strong me!